Rambling in the morning

But then what is hope? That all of your wishes and all of your dreams come true? To have your prayers answered? To turn back time because things weren't supposed to happen like that? Could you say with absolute certainty that you would not make the same mistake again? Who decided all this, and what's been decided..
A path not taken, is also a path that never existed 
One thing I can't run away from, is myself.
Although I'm weak and full of flaws, I will never stop moving forward. No matter who I am, no one other than myself will create my own existence. No matter what others may think or feel, I will still move forward as myself.
No matter what happens, I'll keep on moving. Until this life runs out of me, I'll keep on walking.

Scattered life

Stepping into the unknown
Unsure of what the right move is.
Yes and no tug-a-war in my heart,
But I know, deep down,
What feels good.

The fear quickly moves into excitement,
the shock into hope.
For what may be,
what could be,
what will be.

You never know what you’ll do
when a curveball shatters through the life you’ve painstakingly designed.
But maybe the not knowing is enough.
Enough to just watch it all unfold. 

Letting go of the plan
feels scarier than actually taking the first step
off the the well-marked path.
Just say yes,
Say yes in spite of the doubts, the what ifs
Say yes to the unplanned story being written in front of you.

Not knowing feels scary,
but what do you really need to do?
What do you really need to know?
Embrace and envelop the new, the unwritten.

The truth, the answer, flows through my veins.
Step boldly, step bravely into the unknown,
the untold.
Open your heart and your arms
to what may be,
what could be,
what will be.

That Hollow Lie Against My Hope That I Won’t Buy

These quiet words, they carry me away
They keep coming back
In idle thoughts and hollow cut-aways
Disarm me
No will to attack

Though the sorrow and fear they may depart you today

I will fail you
Of that I'm sure
I will remind you of the pain forevermore
And when my sins are just a memory
Faith restored
I will fail you
To the core

These quiet words

Lost in the shadow of an endless grace
My reign is unbound
In this abandon I will devastate
Till agony’s found

Though the sorrow and fear they may depart you today

It’s Hard to Say
That I’m Back
On a Straight Line
You See My Path
Is In Fact
Just A Fault Line

Your Fool I Will Not Be

It’s In My Blood, It’s In My Lungs
And It Won’t Die
I Fight These Words, I Bite My Tongue
So I Don’t Lie
Though It’s Me to Blame
There is No More Shame in Me
In Me…

And How You Rest Your Faith in These for a Lifetime

The Waters Rise Above My Eyes
I Will Breathe It In and Go Out With the Tide
And When You Think This is The End
You Will Find Me There Where I Have Always Been

I Am a Stone, Unaffected
Rain Hell Down Onto Me
Flesh and Bone, Unaffected
Your Fool I Will Not Be
I Am a Stone…

I Am a Stone

I Try to See and Believe
In the Short Sight
Accept the Burn of A Vain
And A Half-Life