Just because

Just because my harsh words to you were spoken in anger
doesn’t mean my world of soft words for you weren’t true.
Just because I know I’ll never be significant to you
doesn’t mean my heart isn’t still aching for you.

I wish you understood
I know I didn’t help
I know what I said hurt you
and I hate that
but you broke me so many times
every word, now,
is dragged over broken glass

Just because I made sure you won’t speak to me again
doesn’t mean I don’t wish we still could.
Just because I finally got angry enough to say everything
doesn’t mean I’m not empty without you.

I wish you understood
how much you hurt me
what I went through
just for a glimpse of you
how sick it made me
how I hated myself for it
because I can never hate you

Just because I finally decided to tell you how wrong you’ve been
doesn’t mean I don’t miss your rare moments of affection.
Just because you repeatedly broke my heart into pieces
doesn’t mean your name isn’t still written all over them.

I wish you understood
my options were always
between telling you
how you made me feel,
losing you forever,
or saying only the careful things
because you were always so ready to bolt

Just because you left me so terribly empty inside
doesn’t mean I don’t still wish I could be filled by you.
Just because I can’t let myself be hurt by you anymore,
doesn’t mean I don’t still smile sometimes when i think of you.

not an emergency

(but something to consider)



everything is fine.
no.worries.
it's just that

there is a d a r k n e s s
closing in
on the edges,

and lights swirl
in the p e r i p h e r y.

dark heart

From a lovers embrace
Trembling in fear and fright 
Concealed they protect their fragile emotions from the beating world
The soul will not bear another failed romance

Too afraid to seek the touch warm loving hand
Shunning the living with teary eyes and shaking hands
Loneliness becoming destiny and inevitably fate
Love slowly slips beyond their feeble reach

If only the past was a dream that would die 
Broken promises sleep night after night by their side
Stilling their lips
The cries cant be heard
As hate destroys their heart
Poisoning and stifling their words

So some people hide their love in the dark
From a lovers embrace
Trembling in fear and fright 
They choose to dispense with love
And the risk of chance
Concealed they protect their fragile emotions from the beating world
The soul will not bear another failed romance